3am

it’s 3am and i am trying to understand this part of Circuits. blame it on me because i didnt pay attention during lecture and now i have to pay the price of trying to study for it now.i feel like giving up on this part. bah.

anyway,

admist all the craziness and feeling so overwhelmed as of late, this passage somehow calmed me down.

 

Lamentations 3:25-33

The Message (MSG)

25-27God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits,
to the woman who diligently seeks.
It’s a good thing to quietly hope,
quietly hope for help from God.
It’s a good thing when you’re young
to stick it out through the hard times.

28-30When life is heavy and hard to take,
go off by yourself. Enter the silence.
Bow in prayer. Don’t ask questions:
Wait for hope to appear.
Don’t run from trouble. Take it full-face.
The “worst” is never the worst.

31-33Why? Because the Master won’t ever
walk out and fail to return.
If he works severely, he also works tenderly.
His stockpiles of loyal love are immense.
He takes no pleasure in making life hard,
in throwing roadblocks in the way:

it really helped to put things in perspective for me. i have been blinded the past few days about what God can do for me in this trying period. i kept thinking that  if i dont study hard, i wont do well. but God puts it differently. it’s not about the grades, and it’s about the journey with Him.i know this full well from my experience during quiz week. yet i failed to exercise it. it’s disappointing. i am praying that i will be able to find myself and what faith really is during this trying week. the devil in me will tell me to put this matter aside until my exams are over. but i know it cannot wait. God cannot wait. and i need to work on this. i dont deny it is still a struggle to make decisions between spending time with God and studying. but i will try my very best to make the right choices. so give me the faith, God. help me to not talk about but exercise it. i need to pull myself away from the grades and seeking to have that peace in my heart.

it’s really not easy right now. but by God’s grace, everything will turn out great.

went to school for consultations today, and thinking back, i am extremely grateful to be able to have that consultation with Prof Goel. he has been awarded the best professor for 17 years and no doubt. he is a great teacher who is patient and most importantly, does not look down on us stupid students. HAHA. i am thankful because we managed to catch him at the right day, which was today as he would be overseas on tuesday onwards. the paper is on next monday and i really thank God for that opportunity to clear my doubts with him. it’s amazing.

and yes. i think it’s time for bed. shall work on this AC part tmr. hope i will understand it tmr.

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