because He has a purpose in my life.
Heavenly Father, I worship you as my Lord and King. i praise You that You are all knowing and can see the end from the beginning. That You uphold all things by Your power. That You hold my life in Your hand. That You see my past and my future. i lift up to You all that i am and offer my life to You. Make me an instrument through which Your will is accomplished on earth. Use what i have for Your glory. lift me up to see things from Your perspective, and help me to rise above my limitations. i dont want to limit what You can do in me and through me because i dont have an adequate vision of what Your heart desires to accomplish.
“therefore we also pray always for you that our God would count you worthy of this calling, and fulfill all the good pleasure of His goodness and the work of faith with power.” 2 Thess 1:11
the above was taken from the book “The Prayer that Changes Everything” that was gifted to me during christmas. i cannot say for sure that i fully accept and believe all that was written because i still feel broken. but i know that it is completely normal for a happy christian to praise God and be thankful for the good things. but the difference comes when life hits you hard and you have to learn to praise God in the bad times. that’s what makes you a real christian. i have fallen behind. i know myself. i have to climb back up again. it’s tiring and honestly i am sick of everything and i want out. i just ask for peace in my heart right now.
“Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it’s such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I’m goin’ back to the start.”-The Scientist, Coldplay.
please take me back to the start when i could have stopped myself from this huge mistake.thanks.
/edit: this day is getting worse that i thought. sigh. move on amelia. move on.